Sonogram1

I went in for a sonogram on Monday to check the viability of the pregnancy. They were unable to find a fetal pole or heartbeat, but the embryonic sac and yolk sac look good. Nice and round and where it should be. They measured me to be SIX WEEKS not six weeks and four days, as suggested by the Doctor and Nurse Practitioner I have already seen. Now, counting forward from six weeks, I have determined myself that my new due date is 7/12 (which is what I suggested to begin with!).

I haven’t had anymore HCG Checks. I’m not worried though because as of yesterday I’ve become extremely nauseous, so obviously the little bean is growing in there. I just hope he or she is healthy this time and keeps on growing to term.

I will go back on November 30^th for another sono to check again for viability. At that date I should be 8 weeks and a heartbeat and pole should be evident. I am praying and praying.

Lab Results

Had more labs done on Wednesday because I needed a new number to compare to my intial HCG Level. Initially this second lab wasn't even ordered, so when I called to set it up they ordered it as a regular lab. Not a stat lab. So I had to wait until Friday to get my results.

I called the office yesterday morning. My HCG Levels have increased, more than doubled, actually. They have gone from 1822 up to 3883! So far so good.

This morning I checked my home voicemail. There was a message confirming my appointment for Monday's appointment; then another message from the same office asking me to give them a call! How the hell am I supposed to call them if they're leaving me messages at home while I'm at work? I need to update that information in my file I guess. Hello -- I gave you a work number because, yes, I work! Now I'll have to wait until Monday to call them before my appointment. I hope it's nothing to detrimental or important. How nerve wracking. Like I don't have enough shit to be stressed out about.

Dr Visit #2

Saw my favorite doctor yesterday. He said they had to do another exam because the NP I saw on Friday didn’t test for the usual STD’s… But I shouldn’t be billed for two. WTF is that all about? Staff falling down on their jobs? Whatever.  

 

They did a blood draw to check my HCG Level. The doctor-on-call called me with my lab results last night, close to 10pm. My HCG Level was 1822. Now I just need to get back in there on Wednesday to see if the level is increasing “by at least 60%.”

 

Because the fetus had chromosomal abnormalities this last time, they’re going to be sure to watch me closely. Genetic screenings and sonograms. Because of the LEEP procedure I had years ago and the two D&C’s there will also be Level 2 Ultrasounds. Glad they’re being so cautious and thorough with me.

 

Dr. D is so funny. He said “I don’t care if you exercise or don’t exercise. Eat well or don’t eat well. My wife ate pizza every day for a week, so I just laughed at her when she was constipated.” He said as long as I’m taking my prenatal vitamins I can do whatever the hell I want pretty much. Ha!!   Of course I won’t. If I am lucky enough for this baby to be a healthy one… If I am lucky enough to get to my second trimester, I am definitely going to do some cardio. My goal will be to do a little cardio EVERY DAY so my labor isn’t as horrible as it was the first time around.

 

I am still not feeling anything. Not tired. Not starving. No nausea. No breast tenderness. Dr. D says that doesn’t mean anything. Some people have no symptoms, and I should be hungriest around 18 to 22 weeks.

 

Here are some dates that have been tossed around for my due date: NP M says 7/9/2010, Dr. D says 7/8/2010, I say sometime between 7/11 and 7/15. I showed Dr. D my fertility chart and showed him the fact that conception took place on 10/22 or 10/24… he says it doesn’t matter, he always goes 40 weeks out from the first day of your last period (10/1/2009) so. We’ll see. If I even make it that far.

 

Like before, Dr. D commented on my husband’s Chuck Taylor’s yesterday. He showed my husband and I a picture of he and his wife on their wedding day. He was dressed in his tux with RED Converse. He said if he gets to be the delivering doctor, he’ll wear them to the delivery room for us. I love Dr. D.

 

I’m really trying very hard not to become optimistic. At least not yet. It is what it is.

 

 

 

 

Pessimistic.

Confirmed the pregnancy on Friday. The nurse practitioner gave me a due date of 7/9 (I think it's somewhere between 7/11 and 7/15 though). She then made me an appointment with my favorite doctor on Monday. Dr. D. She said she wanted to get me in as soon as possible with him so we can check HCG levels and anything else the Dr. might like to touch on as to maybe prevent another miscarriage.

Today I woke up at 7. Was not starving like usual. Had breakfast at 7:30; lunch at Noon. Here it is 5:30 pm and I'm still not starving.

This is what happened last pregnancy. I don't have a good feeling about this. Feeling pretty pessimistic, actually.

Here we go again.

I had been using the ovulation kits these past few months because my ovulation time is always different than the norm. I had left over sticks from last month, so instead of five testing days in October, I had 7! 7 testing days! So I started testing early, and all seven days, nothing. So after the testing was over, we got busy anyway, and I just assumed I missed my fertile window when I got what I presumed to be my period, only one day before it was due.

I have noticed since we got back from vacation that I am starving when I wake up and starving at the end of the work day. I just chalked it up to being busy and burning more calories. Yesterday I noticed I was hungry every three hours! That can't mean I'm pregnant, I'm trying to start my period! Then last night I kept having to pee. So after class I decided to take a pregnancy test.

Immediately nothing happened. I stared and stared at it, then I threw it in the garbage. Before bed I pulled it out and -- it's positive! So I left it on my husband's wallet, so he would find it this morning (he wakes up much earlier than I do). After I woke up, I took another test. Yep still positive. This is the note he left me.



My first appointment is tomorrow to confirm the pregnancy. Hoping they'll do an HCG Check.

I told the director of my daughters school about the pregnancy, and guessed on the date so I could go ahead and get us on the list for infant care. She asked me if I had the support of a church. I said yes (even though I'm not a member [yet?]). Then she asked if she could pray over me. I said that would be wonderful.

It was very moving. Brought me to tears. I need all the prayers I can get.

My daughter prays every night for a healthy baby brother. "Or sister" we always add. Hopefully all of our prayers are being answered.